Chapter 4: Why?

It’s a question that’s brought up by mainly my family. I’m gonna take the time to try and answer as many of them as possible.

1. “Why go into film/TV? It’s basically impossible to get a job.” Well because it’s something I enjoy doing and the money is crazy. P.S. Challenge accepted.

2. “Why go to Disney and basically give them free labor?” Again, something I’ve wanted to do for quite some time now, and I’m pretty sure it’s the beginning of an interesting journey.

3. “Why do you waste so much time at church?” I feel at peace when I’m there even though it’s a very tiring job. Even if I’m not working, I enjoy being there. Feels more homely than my actual home.

Life whys:

4. “Why do you get incredibly sad out of nowhere a lot?” Simply put, I start thinking. I think about how my love life is basically non-existant and how nice it would/would’ve been to have someone by my side as I go on these crazy adventures that make up my life. Being alone and dying alone are my biggest fears. I don’t cope well with my fears.

5. “Why are you so attached to people?”(a life why and a people why) See above. Also, I value people rather highly especially if I let them into my life. I’m crazy stupid loyal.

“Matchmaker, matchmaker, make me a match. Find me a pair, Catch me a catch.”

C’mon life, you know you want to…. 

I think I’m done for today. Work got crazy busy and kept me from writing. I’m far from done sharing what’s on my mind and heart, but alas I need rest.

Chapter 3: The Always Consistent Life Goal

July 8th 2011: The vacation that changed my life. Walt Disney World changed everything. I finally saw what the next big thing was going to be, the next rung on the ladder. This world was mine for the conquering, and conquer it I will.

Even though I’m always changing what I do and what I want to do, the heart and the core have always been the same. I’ve never realized ‘til recently that all these job titles are just superficial. Deep down inside it’s all the same. What I want to do with my life is entertain and put a smile on someone’s face. Everything I do and will do will somehow redirect to that. I can’t wait.

Chapter 2: The Forever Changing Career Goal

For as long as I can remember, I always said I wanted to be a film director. Go back about eleven years, and my 9 year old self would tell you he wants to be an actor too. Ask my sixteen year old self and he would tell you he wants toe a television producer, writer, and director. Twenty year old me is telling you he wants to be a Disney Imagineer.

I tasted the world of television, and loved it. Only problem is, I was eight-teen. I’ll always say I peaked early. I achieved in some odd way my dream of getting my hands dirty at 30 Rock. After a while, I began to grow tired of the odd lifestyle I had for a few months and began to look for the next big thing. (If you know me well, you’ll also know that I’m all about topping myself.) It was in this nature that I started to shop around. You’d be surprised where and when life decides to give you solutions to your quest.

One Way. One Step towards Permanence.

It’s been a while since I’ve even logged in here, but tonight just seems like a night where I’ve got a lot to say. Tonight I booked my one way flight to Orlando. I know what you’re thinking; “Dave, your program is only six months long.” Yes and no, I always have the option to extend my stay to about ten months, and even if that’s rejected what’s to say I simply transfer to a school down there, graduate, and just stay.

Honestly, I don’t feel like I really have anything here anymore, at least for the time being. I’m sure my crazy antics/multi-layered dream of being a superstar will eventually lead me back to NYC, but for now this area’s given me everything it’s got to give me. Tonight, I totally got friend-zoned (again lol), but I’m unfazed by it. Why? Wait for chapter 2 to find out ;p

Welcome to My Mind

And more importantly, my heart. Starting today, I’ll be writing rather lengthy, almost autobiographical entries about who I am now, how I got here, and where I’m going. I’ve tried sharing with specific individual people, but I’ve realized that not even my closest friends really know ME. They might know a portion of me, but not the full me. Not what makes me tick or why I do what I do. I hope to shed some life on myself for anyone who cares.

Between and after these passages will be pictures and video of things I feel are a big part of me. I do ask for some feedback. Shoot me a text or drop me a message and tell me what you think.